Friday, October 30, 2009

The Poet and Life


Oh, Life
Why are you like that?
Reason when say no
Passion when say yes
Compassion when perhaps

Oh, Life
Why did you let me lost?
Without break the farewell
Without know how go away
Without a pier to anchor
With no boat, no sea
Only nausea and dropouts

Oh, Life
Why do you spend the time
Just in the calendar
While I, perplexed
In each sunrise
In each new shine
Seeing the time streaming

Oh, Life
Say to her I don’t want to go back
Say that I still stumble
In dead words on the floor
The same which were endless

Oh, Life
Say I still sense the smell
I see the smile
I listen to the words and the poetries
I even listen to her silence

Oh, Life
Teach me the meeting art
And forgive me if I didn’t love
I also forgive

But, Life
More than anything
Please, tell me
Why do you do this with me
With so silly heart?

"I do this to you write, little poet"

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The Nude Clown

The clown lost his nose and he felt as nude.

He was there, alone in the center of the stage, lights on him, when he was like that: nude, with no nose.

Never the audience was so big; never so many eyes are directed to him. And he was there, nude, and the audience and the lights and the big stage around him. He, the center of shame.

Everyone laughed and laughed and laughed a lot. He thought not funny at all, just shame and embarrassment, and they laughed of him.

So big was his embarrassment, so big his shame, more and more they laughed.

He was just hiding his nose with his hands, as Adam. He felt so nude, there in the center, hands crossed over the nose, and he felt like he was crossed the legs too, shrunk: something more than sex was exposed.

He was there, totally nude, and in exchange, he received laugh, the laugh which he never wanted.

Without knowing how to get out of that situation, he saw a child out of the audience, running to him, and she jumped in his arms. He was forced to take the hands off the face for that girl didn’t fall and so got her in his arms.

She looked well in his eyes and smiled:

- Mr. Clown, you don’t need to be ashamed. We love you besides the nose. Not is it that makes you clown.

He smiled, half disappointed, embarrassed, he smiled.

She puts her little hands over his nose to cover it. Her hands formed a small shell over it, like a little ball.

Then she looked to him again and smiled.

Her hands were red, shiny, as her eyes.

- Clown, go, smile, and make them laugh with your art, never more of you, of your shame.

And while she spoke, she was disappearing. Left her red little hands, left her little eyes, always ahead. If he hesitated, the little eyes of the angel girl were there, smiling, encouraging, pointing out he should move forward.

The clown laughed and laughed and laughed. And it was so much joy he felt, that everyone in audience cried.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sunset

End of afternoon
Orange sky
In front of the river
I swallow dry
Huge sun begins to fall
I feel the breath amended

Reflex in the river makes another one
Perpendicular river
Particular, ephemeral, of light
And I feel the breasts

As it’s falling exchanges colors
So many times exchanges colors
And my body is all chills

In front of the sun that is falling
Facing the river of light
Directly in my direction
And there, standing, receptive
Dry mouth
Nipples explode
Fever up and down in my body

I am full of sunshine
That loves me strongly
Until its last ray
And disappear within the river
Inside me it disappears

It remains me the pink sky
That I contemplate in all its colors
Until dark
Inside me

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Writing I Do Well

Today I’m feeling so alone
As I never felt
As in that day when my mom went away
As in that day when she came back
As in that day when I discovered
Sometimes people don’t come back

To become is the verb
Become important
Become nobody
Become as dry leave
People step and don’t care
It’s impossible to avoid

Love is the end
Love is enough
It's impossible to love for both

Writing I do well
What I don’t know to do well is forgetting

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Gianduia(*)

That day, I took a chocolate to her.

She accepted and ate. After she said me she liked chocolate with gianduia.

I didn’t know what was that, never I’d heard about that.

In the next day, I looked for it, I found it, I bought and took a chocolate with gianduia for her.

She didn’t come. In the next day, again.

I ate the chocolate. I don’t remember, I think I liked it.

She never more came. Never more I saw her.

Until today, if I find, I buy chocolate with gianduia.

I don’t know what is this yet, but I eat and like.

Gianduia, for me, has her taste.


(*)This silky-smooth hazelnut-flavored chocolate (pronounced john-doo-yah) comes in milk and dark chocolate versions. The term is also used to describe the flavor pairing of chocolate and hazelnut.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Options and Choices

Our lives are full of choices. Every single time you have to decide between options. Go or stay, call, write, answer yes or no. We can have lunch here or there, with this or that one. Now you can stop or continue to read, and I could stop to write.

Sometimes we have the wrong feeling that we don’t have to choice when we stay quiets, when we just let the time go on without do anything. But this was also an option. Sometimes this is the worst one.

We believe we will have to answer for what we did, but I can affirm to you, we are also responsible for what we didn’t do. Everyone knows we are owner of our acts, but I would like to remember we are owner of our silences; we are owner of our omissions.

Actually you and I just do what we want to do. We like to say that we didn’t have options, that the destiny took us here, and we just did some choices, usually those one we believe are nice. But, please, you have to confess with me, you know this hard truth, each step in your life you did and you do because you want. You can stop and change your way anytime, all options are there in front of you.

Yes, we don’t have guilt if something is not as we imagined, we can’t be blamed if we guessed that our options would bring us good results but we were wrong. We are guilt when we do the same two, three, four times and every time we see the same result and we insist to say we didn’t know what would happen. I’m talking about acts and silences, about active and passive decisions.

This afternoon the wind in the fountain was so strong that the water was going to one side only. The water couldn’t go up.

I didn’t put sugar in my coffee and ate bread with no butter.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

White Wine

Our love is white wine
Never proved before

White and transparent wine
Sweet in the mouth
It makes us to wish more
Gradually, with no hurry
Smell and taste
Texture in our tongues
Savour in our fingers

Our love is white wine
It is not the main
But it makes the dish special

A special touch
It makes the life be worthwhile
Each moment, each mouthful
With singular taste
With taste of the last one
Taste of anything else

White wine
For the first time
Other like that, never more